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That doesn't mean that there are not things that could enhance it. I pray every night for someone with whom to share all of these blessings. I pray for children to awaken my home with laughter. I pray for the opportuntiy to wake up every morning next to the man I love most. I pray for the job title of mom, wife, homemaker, and superwoman.
Maybe it's because I've gotten all of my ambitions out of the way; maybe it's because I know I'm going to be okay, regardless of what the future holds; maybe it's because I can honestly say that I don't need my neighbor to come and cut up the big 'ol tree branch that fell on my house last weekend because I can confidently and successfully do it myself; but honestly, I want to be cared for.
When I wanted to become a teacher, there was a plan in place for that. When I wanted to buy a house, I followed all of the steps. Every time I have purchased a car, there has been a familiar routine to follow. I pay my bills according to the rules and followed a template to write my resume. The dogs, eh, well, it's a process. There is no guideline, rule book, or template to meeting my future partner in crime.
Oh. Wait a minute. There are plenty. If I haven't read them all, I've read most of them.
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Sure, I'm super appreciative for all that women in history have done to pave the way for all of the amazing things and experiences that I have been granted or able to earn. I revel in the knowledge that I have not felt the pressure to settle for less than I deserve on any front. But I wonder sometimes if I have learned to be too independent, too self-sufficient, too outspoken. I don't want to be dumb, defenseless, or mute; but I also don't want to be treated like a man, like I'm easy, or like I'm disposable.